Where I am going?

29.06.2020

The end of JUNE.

The sky today is fabulous more than ever. It only strikes me a bit of regret that I didn’t take a picture of it. But it is fine. I could fully grasp the entire spectrum of colors and the view. I made a wish that I would figure out my specific strength soon. I am capable of doing simple and awesome things. Just continue living a life that I want it to be.

I bet Nath will start saying my emotional ass becomes active again. I have sent a thank-you letter to a guy who has been so kind to me and say “I love you” to Nath and Lihoun. They might think I am too much, but I would continue expressing my love and gratitude towards them when it is possible. I don’t want to regret not doing things at any point in time.

Today I had several conversations. Despite the completion of my summer semester, there are a bunch of other things to put through the arrow. I love this business. The whole morning was to discuss on the flow of Complexity slide and activities of facilitation with the seniors. It took me 3 hours more and another meeting with my mentor at early in the afternoon made me run out of time to have lunch. I had some noodle at 230pm then researched for podcasts for my internship at JUMP!.

The talk with my mentor at SoG left me the most space for thoughts. I have been playing a delegate role that things appear like a routine rather than a cultivating process of personal growth. Since stumbling on the social media responsibility and especially the meeting management, I feel much less learning curve to happen in the space. I need to redirect what is the points of motivation and upward movement I could find at School of Gumption. I didn’t have enough focus as well as quality of thoughts to think through the vision for the next stage. Thus my performance was merely the follow-up action assigned by the manager. I didn’t feel a sense of deep connection among the team at hands. I got the autonomy to cordinate meetings but it didn’t meet the goal of building our culture in which people in a team are empowered to take initiatives. I only followed the request of my boss and complete the work whose reflection barely came into any takeaways or skillsets. I was lost in the organization’s objectives most of the time recently. My energy has been down as I have started with a high sense of energy in another place. I felt extraordinary and cramped a paradox of contrasting functions among the two places. I don’t want to leave SoG where nurtures my indepth emotional maturity.

I ll take things slowlier with better quality. I amma make some slight change soon~

#drive

#compass

#criticalpoints