Time and Space
- Aoyumi Jung
- Nov 29, 2022
- 4 min read
Updated: Dec 26, 2022
Good afternoon. 2pm. 29 November 2022.
The older we grow, the fewer friends we have. My boyfriend was sad after his exam. Never ever he was left behind after the examinations. All of his friends left. I feel that. It is not about talking about the exam, it is about gathering and sharing the experience as a friend group. I feel that.
I talked to a classmate in my elective class. She said she had depression. She doesn’t love the things she is doing. That is what I went through vividly as well. So I was happy not to push her to do things in our group project. I hope she will come to the end of this academic journey soon, so she will be free to do things she loves.
I didn’t expect my classmates to do so much in this course. The course is Urban Tourism. I chose this because of my personal interest in tourism as well as urban design. It has been a peaceful class! I also didn’t stress myself out to practice for presentation as much as I used to do for some presentations. I recognized that decent preparation and practice are good enough for words to play in reality. My English can’t be “just swing it” like many people, and I like to be well-prepared for my responsibility. So, I did a nice presentation today with research about stakeholders’ efforts, community needs, travelers’ needs, objectives, unique points of the solution and partnership plan. I collected all of my research points since the beginning of the course into this final one. My professors like them, so I am happy. I didn’t do the design work, my weakness, so I am lucky to have my teammates do that. We only had the proposed solution, instead of a final product. hope my teammates learnt more about one another and will see all life events as learning experience.
I want to go for a run today. I want to get sweaty and practice my breathing. I will get on a hike this weekend. I hope Tao will run greatly tomorrow, an event he has spent the whole year practicing for. I realized I shouldn’t have pushed him to make the decisions about the Inner Peace Camp. Everything takes time. I need time to learn and work, and stay await for many unclear decisions. After many many seeking hours, I decide not to look for things. I will stay at my natural course. What happens will happen.
I like to live slowly, read books about travel and human bodies, wander in forests, play boardgames play badminton, free write and daydream. I don’t know what I am truly passionate about. I can do different things with discipline and good outcomes. I am not sure why I am very driven to achieve things on time as well as ensure good results. Though some exploration processes are not as joyful as going on an outdoor education program. I was distracted many times, I was also sleepy preparing for my academic assignment. But I could force myself to be disciplined since I was 8 years old. I have a daily schedule to sit at the desk to self-study. So I always have to-do-list, daily goal, weekly, monthly and annual goals. Of course, I am not a robot and I love to break the rules. That’s the excitement of being exceptional in learning and doing things.
Sincerely I am asking the universe: Is there such a job that only asks me to do 4 days per week? :)
My wish is: to work 40% of time in front of the screen and the rest is outdoor and moving around, talking to people. 40% of time is silent work that I process my brain and visualize things with my digital device. I like to design activities for others to engage, relax, understand themselves, and nourish their inner mind. I also like to run simple activities for adults or young people after that. Maybe to be a creative designer, learning designer about social-emotional learning, and facilitator. I find it daunting to deliver just information since my own attention span is short. And I want the whole activities to be interactive among humans. I want people to talk about their life, their struggles, and stress, like this Happiness Space project we are doing.
I want to have my own house, get a computer to work on a large screen. I want to have my garden, and greeneries everywhere around my place. I want to live with my love one. Just like a normal person, I want to be financially independent. I like education, nature, inner peace, human interaction, storytelling and a bit of travel once in a while. I like working with like-minded souls, who are passionate, caring, empathetic and paying attention to the details. Otherwise, I could work nicely individually because I am good at self-motivation. I hope my brain space is healthy to take in different kinds of content moving forward. Not taking courses at GSSE, I will work as a liberal person, but I hope to be at places that value empathy as well as freedom of expression like GSSE.
This morning, I happened to listen to a super fascinating podcast episode. I swear I am not a person who could listen to English podcasts with such enthusiasm. I listened to thousands of ones back then to practice my English, but I hardly understood the conversations of native speakers. The one I found was about how war brought people into one, in Ukraine. It is a tragedy that even turned prisoners into kind beings who are ready to fight for their own country. Women are ready to fight. Everyone stands beyond violence and the loss of their beloved one. People felt grateful that some of their beloved ones are still alive. They think on a bright side. They talk about the whole psychological transformation among the citizens. And the tellers expressed their gratitude to be American where everything was better in terms of healthcare, institutions and regulations. But again, time will heal things. But I think it will take another 50 years or more for people to recover from this traumatized experience. Like how Vietnamese have become strong and united as a whole.
Thank you for this journaling session. I am grateful for this building for allowing me to sit here. Thank you that I am alive. Wish me a fun learning time at SGS conference.
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