Self, future and learning values
- Aoyumi Jung
- Nov 6, 2019
- 3 min read
16.00. 06.11.2019
Future could be one step to next month, next year, or next 20 years. Future appears as an abstract piece of art. Ajarn Paul said that, some people are lucky to find out their direction since 5 or 10 years old, yet usually, it does not work this way. We have to try different things, look back to see the patterns, and figure out a clearer path for ourselves. It has to be about connecting the dots, which is realized only when we have dots to connect. The new idea I learn from Ajarn is "HAVE THE DOTS TO CONNECT".
For some reasons, I am probably not used to settling down feeling. Perhaps, settling is short term stage once I have gained a balance from some crisises. Then the mind could not stay still, like ups and downs waves over sea. Mind decides course of action, in other words, mind feels a surge of emotions. I know where I have weird feelings, somehow, some sources of feelings only emerge, slowly or unexpectedly.
Gratefully, most of lessons or dots I am having happen with an interconnection. The Civic Engagement project leads me to tell beautiful humans' stories in which learning values are greatly highlighted as their motivation, their dreams, and their beliefs. There are no negative or positive things because we could always have lessons from them. Learning is a process that takes place everywhere, regardless of physical boundaries. Learning happens among anyone regardless of age differences as the others have knowledge I don't know. Learning keeps people inspired and motivated to continue the adventure. This value seem to be inside those who treasure the time and humanity values.
Future is both far and right in front. Future studies help individual to envision our plan for the upcoming time. Life is full of ambiguity which is of common in this multi- U journey. U of days and nights. U of happiness and sadness. U of craving and suffering (the idea learnt from Sapiens - Buddhism).
In retrospect, I trust that learning values are blended in all of my pathway and decisions. It is also because of this value that I have grown curiosity and reflective mind more often. The Open House event this morning brought me to the time when I sought overseas study events in Hanoi. Coming to different booths in study fairs of countries such as New Zealand, the US, Australia with the sole purpose of coming to see how they are as I had no English or SAT certifications, not much social experience and skills. I was lost in some distant dream schools, lost in nice introduction and stories about student life abroad. What is left in mind now is back to my primitive interest in the country - nature. I could not remember any "marketing" words from the time, which did help me to consider my learning choice. Ultimately, future is facilitated by such stupid dots like that. Today I was standing in GSSE booth as the "representative student" of the Faculty which I was striving for at the same time 1 year ago. It was indeed a painful and worthwhile journey.
I could never foresee that there is that moment I introduced the program to other Thai students, very young souls, who I seemingly felt their wander and confusion, in our conversations. They have wisdom in a way they reacted to my explanation. Hopefully, they will find the answer as long as they keep asking and seeking. This is a much younger generation, my dear sister is at the same age with them. With every step I take, I reflect on it several times before moving forward, and over again. With every person I meet, I try to observe and catch their thoughts. My future. Their future. Maybe it all will meet at some point.
"Always remember who I am, and ask whether I have tried hard enough." Ajarn Pannin.
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