Relaxation is relaxation

17 May 2020

2 most relaxing weeks ~~~ final exams are final exams. Relaxation is relaxation. 😊

Finish two semesters at GSSE in Thailand! How time is flying!

Sometimes I am lost in my directions…

Some pathways are there to walk through but I haven’t seen a strong point to hold me still. The mingling confusion is annoying.

I have applied for 2 jobs and researched to plan for my summer for the past 3 days. Actually, the plan has always been around in my head but external factors could come around anytime. I was yearning to work in Hanoi for the whole summer if I could go back to Vietnam. I want to see my friends, have coffee and deep talk with them, eat the best food in Vietnam, go to visit Hoi An to recall beautiful memories of those days. I can’t do it anymore. I won’t be able to attend my best friend’s wedding. I was lost in thoughts yesterday about friendship, movement, relationship, family, myself…

I am going to move all of my stuff to the new lovely room in 1 hour. I was sleepless thinking of saying goodbye to the place I have been with for 9 months, people I have been warmly treated and the best nature I have ever lived in. I am partly happy to officially come to a cosy “house” where I could hug my roomate, sing all day long and dance crazily together. I love physical touch and energetic sound of life besides the hardworking attention. I have endured the freaking silence for 2 months since the lockdown which I never thought it turned out the way it is. Finally, things just make sense as piecing them together. I understand what makes me happy, where I belong to and who means much to me.

This short blog is just to express that I am soully and physically free at the moment! I hope to start an exciting journey next month. Promise to myself to be able to embark on a cool journey, like every exciting summer since I was away from home at 18 years old. I am indeed curious and ready for this summer. I won’t stay at home and work online. I know I won’t. I first volunteered abroad to Thailand in 2017, then in 2018 I volunteered to teach Hospitality English for Dao ethnic group in Ha Giang, upnorth province in Vietnam, and traveled cross 6 provinces later, last year was a thrilling social innovation learning time in Singapore. I will make every minute of my life count.

I miss the internship time when I get up early to take buses everyday to the co-working space. It was never tired of getting up early as I could see my bosses and observe the way they work together. Having someone to be our boss is technically under control but we don’t seem to get lost. We have the navigator to show us what to do. I love to be the boss of my life and be self-directed, yet in terms of professionalism, I do need a boss to walk with me. See you soon my new boss. 😊

#relaxation

#hope

#touch