Hi July! Ponder while sipping coffee.

01 July 2023

Encrusted in my private space, all I like to do is to think and write. This process doesn’t have an end. The book doesn’t have a storyline. My only need is to express and see possibilities. 

the best view I like to look for

In an ideal relationship, we would help the other solve their problems, apart from ours. Helping others to overcome struggles is a joy. But there are issues that we have to help them because of love and responsibility. It’s funny watching “Our beloved summer” that Ung begins to buy gifts for his girlfriend once he understands that she used to be ashamed of financial burdens. Such a thing makes her feel that she doesn’t deserve the relationship. I understand her thoughts and self-pressure. And now they are wealthier, more successful and able to spend on happiness. 

Yesterday, I slept for 4.5 hours. I was lost in swirling thoughts about my life. A brief conversation with mom and dad could tire me out. That said, there are things that only happen within minutes but have so much impact on our life. I really don’t want to think about jobs. 

still have super happiness with dad over our biking time

What has been fascinating is the book “Sympathizer” by Nguyen Thanh Viet. I have read several books about war. This feels different. Sentences come in descriptive words that push me to read faster and feel the intensity of the crisis. The crisis of leaving home countries, running for lives, crying for loss and a gloomy future. 

Random: My question is what the General will do in America. I understand the women, girls, daughters, mothers have hit him because of anger and many emotions. They are just doing justice for their beloved ones. They are fighting for fairness. They have to run away while the others stay and fight hard. If I were in that situation, I would curse the General as well. I don’t know who he is, as in his personality and ultimate goal.

Mom works nonstop. I literally begged her to go have breakfast together. She has boundless energy. We are debating whether to get an induction hob. I see her point and dad’s. I think we can come to an agreement. “Decent electricity bill”, as evidenced by Nga’s house :) and we can still use a gas stove outside for certain food. Safety is of the most importance when people are aging! I hope dad listens. I don’t want fights in this family. 

3pm

Finished the series “Our beloved summer”. It’s the rare one next to the Reply Series that gives me this warm and hopeful feeling about reality. Everything is real. The relationship is admirable, though it might not be common. Characters recognized their life and what they really desire in life. 

“I can see your bright future ahead… not because of what GSSE taught you but your natural leadership skills.” I will take that as a great compliment from Ei! I was honest with her about my anxiety too. True that when we are in our shoes, we are a bit jealous of the good side of other people’s shoes. I hope in July, I will know the next destination I will be at. 

Mom sent me job info sometimes. I don’t want my parents to worry about my career. I have the ability to sort it out.

I should have life goals and ambitions, like mom. She sets high goals and tries hard. If there is a time machine, I want to go to the future to see what I will be doing at this point in the next 10 years!

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Hope this month inner peace, happiness, wealth, warmth, laughter, entertainment, travel, reunions, opportunities, joy, friendships, relationships, health, satisfaction. Happy JULY!