Dots converge.

5pm.

Traffic jam time at Thammasat!

Walking closely around the wall of Puey library, I can see an entire space of wisdom and philosophies. They go for humanity, transparency, democracy and social responsibility.

I can’t focus on working now. I feel like I want to relax. This week has been a hardworking week when I am involved in several major responsibilities. Studying – fully engaged in the lessons, takeaways, and assignments. Workstudy – 2 jobs taken charged by 2 professors, 2 among the best teachers I have ever known. Then I prepared for the interview which might change my life. I don’t know how it went but I tried my best through the flow it came out. I could not process better. I trust in my efforts. I have got some more tasks from my boss Tao who seems to be cold. I don’t understand him well. Sometimes I don’t feel he is empathetic. But he is super welcome and enthusiastic. Especially after watching some documentaries about how the communities in Bangkok are inhumanely evicted for the construction of some governmental projects, I thought he could be thoughtful too. It’s just I always feel there is some distance between him and students. The gap is different from that among us and other Ajarns like Ajarn Pannin, Ajarn Matthew, etc. Anyhow, I like mysterious people who make me keep thinking of them and guess how they are.

I wish to learn from Ajarn Tao some skills of analyzing insights, solving problems, and paying attention to the urban architecture together with the lens of humanity. He has recently driven me into a quite strange pathway that never existed in my learning dictionary.

Who knows, in the end, things converge at a point where we can’t expect.

I am having a meeting with him this Monday, this will take place within a short time maybe, I hope to make the most out of it. In communication with busy people, having empathy is necessary to take things easily, and get on well with each other, not to mention my knowledge is down to some low level. I have to appreciate all Ajarns for always taking their time to feedback on our silly questions. They probably know we are stupid, young but they like the curiosity of our hunger mind. We are their past that they used to walk through, or might not be as good as. Yet there should not be any comparison. I am sure sometimes we do bring them back to their young time when they also sat in the lecture hall, listened to intensive lectures, wandered about their future.

I don’t know where I will stop by in the future. The world is constantly changing though people are doing their best to resist destroying the Earth. Each of the individuals has their mission, which could be about their life or serving others or both. Mine is apparently towards social causes, rooted from my personal story. There is something leaving me not at ease if I put my hands down, and just live for my life. It is not me. I am happy to have dirty hands, and mess around with the struggles of uncertainty. That said, it is my true happiness and life calling.

This morning and yesterday, I heard some interesting critics from some dudes at my school about Ajarns. Advised by my critical friend, he said no matter how much we like a place/ a person, always be critical to look at both sides to know what is true. Their critics, therefore, can’t affect the way I love this school, its human being. Instead, I got to be more aware of my own thoughts, my appreciation towards what I believe, with the different perspectives of people. Their feedback is more like a validation test on my affirmation for human beings.

#wander

#appreciation

#education