Beauty next to me

12.00 am 12.02.2020

What is right next to you and you don’t recognize.

The law of attraction is true.

I care about LGBTQ people. I am working in a video project highlight issues of LGBTQ people in educational system in Thailand under the Course Creative Communication. I happened to watch an MV about love which promotes inclusiveness and love in relationships. I shared the post on Facebook. Surprisingly, my friend who I have befriended for a long time texted my confessed that he is gay. “Save my life” with a “wow” expression. God blesses. Thank you for sharing it with me! These unexpected moments really boost my enthusiasm to create a good video!

I name this post “happy secret”. I am proud of myself for keeping secrets of others. I think I have secrets that I don’t share with others. Do I have some reliable person to share with? Yes.

Suddenly I think if you are really a gay man like some people tell about you. I don’t care though. I like the way you are, just that.

I told my friend that I have been looking for a gay friend because I like their character, their straightforwardness, their frankness and their intellectual charm. Some people might be verbally rude but it is how they are in order to express their thoughts. Words sound like “curses” yet they bring along beautiful values of humans. They dare to tell what they think as their belief. They dare to be themselves rather than putting on masks. It is always good to be ourselves. I am an introvert person, and I know I love wandering in my own stream of thoughts. I love to be with someone who can read my thoughts and share their thoughts with me too. My life has never been with anyone like that. A relationship is not a tie as long as it makes me comfortable, and peaceful. What drives me to go out to be with nature? Because nature heals my soul powerfully. It does not ask me who I am, it does not go away from me. It stays silent but why I feel it is listening to my voice, sincerely. I have refreshed my mind this weekend by an excursion to a National Park. I am grateful for myself to be persistent in self-training that I conquered the mountain with little effort. Ultimately, the goal was to have a healthy lifestyle, and accordingly, healthy mind, and healthy heart. I can’t deny my heart is complex. The nature of human heart is complex. Our job is to appreciate how it is and move on.

My friend is in his lovely relationship. He deserves it. He said he needs space for himself to breathe and live authentically. He hasn’t disclosed the truth publicly because the timing is not ripe. I am sorry. I am here to have the best wishes and hope for you, for the way you are. Be persistent, be happy!

An irrelevant quote shared today by me to a junior in my highschool, who is inconfident of herself due to her academic performance.

"Studying is only one factor deciding your values. There are a lot of other things that define how beautiful you are like your personality, your dreams, your friendship, your effort and how you don't give up. I know the hardships of family pressure which can make ourselves be inconfident and look down on our own values. Try not to be influenced by their saying. Be yourself and continue moving. You have your own world, live your world."

#love

#trust

#equality